To doubt is to arm.
To doubt is to threaten.
To doubt is to challenge.
To doubt is to arm.
To doubt is to threaten.
To doubt is to challenge.
Step 1 - decide whether you are happy or not
Step 2 - If not happy, begin to eliminate the things that make you unhappy
Step 3 - refresh
Arms look so long haha!
My parents (are amazing :D)
Today I didn’t really plan anything. I knew that later on tonight I was gonna watch a show but between the time I wake up and the show, I thought, heck, I’m gonna be productive yet try to relax!
So I did the washing, did some work, ate breakfast and all that jazz and as I was walking back from school, I remembered something one of my teachers told us during class.
It was about how out of all the millions of billions of people who occupy this Earth, there is only one you. And to make to mind screw you even more, only YOU have your OWN specific voice. I mean, at first I thought that was a cool thought but for some reason it really hit home while walking back and just observing all these different people who were walking past me. That theres only one type of him, only she looks like that, only he walks, talks and looks like that. I mean isn’t that frikin awesome and inspiring as well? That there is only one you and you will already offer something different to the plate when it comes to work or anything simply because the way the worlds worked out for you either bad or good? You’re kinda in control of what you want to do, In control of what effects you and what doesn’t because you are you? Scary yet cool stuff huh?
Anyway, I preach…
I tried the new Kit Kat chunky and found it disgusting. Of course it’s Kit Kat so I finished it but i really didn’t like it and it’s funny cause usually I’d eat anything! But this specific chocolate bar didn’t agree with my taste buds.
Loads of people rate it but it wasn’t that great at all. Heck, at least I learnt something ey!
I’m home today. After a week of work I come home to check on the hero.
It’s not good, but not bad either. It’s a consistent fluctuation but what can you expect?
I took the kids out to get a film. The film I got is a film which I would call my personal wall…
This film came out not so long ago and a guy I knew stars in it and for a while I had been so jealous and said I would never watch the film because of this green eyed monster which lurked within me. I would spend nights, looking for flaws and bad reviews and like everything else it had those bad reviews but then it had incredible reviews.
After the film, the person shot up in the industry…Breaking America, breaking all sorts. And I was envious…really envious.
That envy really slowed my progress.
So tonight, after a series of events, I’ve decided to break that envy and that wall and watch the film.
This may sound silly and small to you, but it’s a big thing for me and recently I’ve decided to take these walls down. I’ve needed to.
I had to put myself in a metal shell today and surrounded myself with the voice of angels…In other words, I locked myself in the car and listened to classical music. It’s been stressful. The smallest things set me off and I can’t exactly show it in front of loved ones so I keep a strong face till I’m alone and then I just gather my thoughts, gather my strength and carry on…because thats all you can really do in situations like these.
My dads a fighter. And I’m my fathers son.
Currently I’m at war.
And as the hard days go by, victory becomes clearer.
I feel sensitive. Very sensitive. Like at any moment I could burst into tears or explode in a fit of rage. This feeling. The feeling of being on the brink. The feeling just before you lose balance and fall. That suspension.
Emotional twilight. What got me into this position? Words. Facts. Life. Time.
I’m am in the process of seeing my hero, my backbone, my saviour becoming mortal and it’s so painful to watch.
I catch myself sitting there, staring and losing myself. I don’t wish this upon my worst of enemies.
It’s a balancing act currently. Life is always a balancing act I’ve learnt and what else is there really to do except do your best to hold it out?
Just stay strong. Gotta fight and stay strong.
I’m a real strong believer on building things from the foundations upwards.
Even when given the opportunity to reach the top or get to the end goal quicker, I always stop and think about the next move I make.
People rush into things a lot and when they get to the outcome, they don’t feel that great about it.
This is something I’ve tried to stop because I used to try and rush everything because of time. I was scared of time when I shouldn’t be.
People say life is short and all that and yeah, OK, but theres still time to really enjoy and savour every moment you have of life.
Now I’m not saying I don’t rush anymore. I still do. But I’ve taken into consideration how valuable time is through the mistakes I’ve learnt from.
I’m not at the top yet, but I’m happy of where I am because of what I’ve been through and done before to get me where I am.
And to top it off, I don’t see myself falling.
Not anytime soon.
I’ve seen things, heard things, experienced things which can’t really be explained.
Felt certain emotions I never thought I would even possibly think of having, said things I thought I would never say…but then again, you could argue, who hasn’t.
I think the main thing which separates you from the other person is the experience gained from the lesson given. You may understand something, but take it in a completely different light. Or you might not have any idea what’s going on…but you still gain something from that.
You could say the stereotypical answers such as:
Never Give Up
To always be yourself
To trust yourself and no one else
That you can do it if you put my mind to it
But the BIGGEST lesson I learnt. The one that will ALWAYS and I mean ALWAYS stick by me:
Is to never underestimate people. Never.
To do so, is to condemn yourself. It’s happened so many times.
You look at one person. You judge. Look at their characteristics, their language. They ACT like not the brightest one in the bunch but when they want to show their true colours they do. And this could range from first encounters; to friends you have known for years.
The first time I learnt this, it was brilliantly terrifying.
So yeah…there’s a tip for you guys. Don’t underestimate anyone. And this can be from small scenarios to big things.
Everyone’s an Actor.
The power to question.
Depending on the way you look at it. To question can be to destroy or to improve. I mean, you ever thought how life would be like if you couldn’t question? Ironic how that question is a question ey? Ack too many questions. But you get what I mean.
If people just let things go on by. If whatever happens, happens. Perhaps evolution and growth would stop because you can’t really improve unless you notice the faults and ask why is it faulty or what else can I do to make this bad boy better.
I think the reason why I think the worst present ever is to question is mainly because it changes and complicates things. I’m not sayign I don’t like change, I mean, I have my phases where I need a change of gear or change of music but…hmmm how do I get myself outta this?(another question)
The reason why is because right now I feel like it. There. Simple.
But truthfully, what you reckon?(another question) would be be better or worse? (another question)
Actually, don’t answer that.
Actually, thinking about it. My worst present would probably be this huge book on car mechanics when I was 7 given to me by my uncle.
It had no pictures.